Hello Friends!
I sit here tonight and blog while sitting by Christmas tree (that suddenly has many gifts under it!) with Miracle on 34th Street (the remake) playing in the background on tv, while I procrastinate addressing our Christmas cards. Procrastination - yeah - it's still with me even though my college years are behind me. :) I wanted to take a few moments to wish you all a Merry Christmas - I have a feeling that in a blink of an eye Christmas will be here. How is it possible that it's only a week away?!?
Lately, I've been burning the candle at both ends. I have a tendency to ignore the fact that I'm not feeling that well and that I'll just power through it. If I ignore it, it will go away, right? Unfortunately, that's not working out so well for me these days. I want to be a go-getter though and so I find it hard to tell myself to stop, to say no more today, to say enough is enough for now. Because of all of this I am very much looking forward to the holidays. I cannot wait to wear my pajamas past 7:00am, to have slippers on, not heels (not that I wear those so much anymore), and to be surrounded by family. If you can't be yourself with family, then who can you be yourself with? They've seen me through the good, the bad, and the ugly and so if I'm not feeling 100% I can be okay with letting my guard down. And honestly, when you're not feeling good, who doesn't love going home to have their mom take care of them? ;)
I'm not sure where I intended to go with this post…other than to say I'm sorry to those who I may complain to. I'm sure you're tired of hearing how tired I am all of the time. Thank you for taking the time to listen when I vent. If I suddenly have to cancel plans we've made or if I politely decline an invitation to an event please don't take it personally. Please know that I'd rather be with you, doing whatever it is we may have planned, but that for the sake of my health I cannot. I am trying really hard to get back to 100% but I'm just not there yet.
I am thankful though for my wonderful life. I am so lucky to have such an amazing family and such a great love! As the holidays roll around I am also very thankful for such fantastic childhood Christmas memories. I love Christmas and that is absolutely because my Grandpa made it so special when I was growing up. And a huge shout out to my parents too! They were sneaky for a lot of years traveling from Nebraska to Minnesota. Never once did I have to question, "how would Santa find me in Minnesota if I lived in Nebraska?" My Grandpa dressed as Santa and always made the holiday so special. I remember many Christmas Eve services at his church, Oak Grove Lutheran Church. I remember the chills that the service could give you. I remember the Christmas meal of ham, with pineapple and cherries pinned onto it. You see, my Grandpa was Christmas to me…and he still is. I still see him in my mind. I still have ornaments from his tree that now adorn my tree. He's still here, everywhere, especially at Christmastime. I see him in every Santa I see…every figurine I walk by in a store…every Christmas movie I watch. And so I may be exhausted, I may not feel my best, but you can bet I am excited for the magic of Christmas. I know that Christmas is much more than Santa - there is a true reason to the season. For me though, Santa connects me to memories from years in the past and to my guardian angel up above.
Merry Christmas to all my friends and family! I hope your holidays are spectacular! If you're traveling - I hope that the weather allows for safe travels and that you'll be able to spend time with those you hold dear. My wish is that you get time to relax, to love, to appreciate, to soak in the magic of the season. Don't dwell on the stress that life can throw your way. In 20 years the memories will matter - not the stress of the day.
"We invite you to ask yourself this one simple question: Do you believe in Santa Clause?" -Miracle on 34th Street
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